Today is a new day...

Is it cause I feel unworthy of anything good in my life? Do I blame myself for getting raped? All I know is good things or people don't stay in my life for very long. I have control over my actions and so, I know I can change. The problem is, I don't have much control over my thoughts and feelings. Trying to get them under control is going to be hard. But with some help from someone who truly loves me, I know I can do it.