The Beginning. I have a long way to go...

I'm not happy or proud with the person I am or became. Don't really know if there is a difference. All I know is...I have to change. I want to be a better mother, person, friend, girlfriend, sister, daughter, etc.

One of my demons...cheating. Whether it be mentally or physically. I've cheated in almost all of my relationships and have been cheated on. Sometimes I feel like shit afterwards, sometimes I don't. Either way, I know what I'm doing is wrong and I hate it when it's done to me. So why do I keep doing it? Why do I keep hurting the people who care about me?